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Here it goes.
Again.
It seems there are some things I haven’t outgrown. Perfectionism, for one. It’s been minutes after I’ve finally figured out what to write about and yet I’m here, still contending with myself in trying to get everything right. It’s one of the many internal debates that’s been going through my head lately – one that particularly concerns whether I should take a shot at something or just leave it behind.
That’s the thing with me – always refining, always preparing but never actually getting anything done. That nothing’s ever enough would be an understatement. There’s always anticipating something I might have missed out on, or a word that might sound inappropriate.
Maybe it’s why I don’t enjoy writing as much as I used to. Making everything sound right seems so much more like a chore than a pleasure I’m inclined to do. And maybe, just maybe, it’s why after three years of writing, I’ve only been able to produce less than one-hundred-twenty posts on a previous blog I’ve actually failed to maintain.
For now, I’m still trying to start over, even though my tendencies dictate otherwise. If only it were as easy breaking habits as simply knowing them. Until then, there are some things I know I haven’t outgrown. Perfectionism, for one.
And writing, for another.
Hah. If there’s one thing you must do to maintain a blog, it’s to stop stressing too much.
I know, I know, you’ll say that I write so well, to the point that even those entries that I call senseless amaze you… but sometimes you really have to just let it go, you know? I mean, it’s an adventure. You’ll get to break out of the shell that you think you have – writing in the same style almost every time. Initially my entries look stupid and feel stupid, but sooner it’ll take on its own life.
Better step on other shoes and get around things.
You’re right, of course – on both counts. I just get very conscious sometimes – I feel I have a responsibility putting forth what I think is good for my readers. But we-ell, things get better with practice, I suppose.
Thanks, Niko! I’ll certainly try harder this time.
haha typical of u Dex >.> and u told me we dont write to impress but to express
throws back at ya’
I thought you’d say that, Liz. Don’t worry, I’ve kept reminding myself since then. Thanks!
hi dexter. you write really well. it’s ok. i think perfectionism is present in nearly all of us bloggers. and i agree with mr. henrik. we shouldn’t be stressing too much when we blog. we must simply enjoy ourselves and let it all out. after all, what’s a blog for but a mental-emotional-spiritual excretory system? hehe good day! ^^
nope I don’t mind the least bit. thanks too. ^^